Sadness

If I were telling a story of my life, where would I begin, I believe in my heart I’m paying for my sins. 

While alone at night, sometimes I can feel my heart flutter, speaking to me quietly with barely a mutter.

During this adventure I feel so isolated, on my own if you will, it’s crazy how I feel better swallowing a pill. 

In some ways I feel empty trying to let it out, or could it just be me clowning about. 

Sadness fills my soul from losing someone so dear, I know inside there’s really nothing to fear. 

God has his back, I believe this truthfully, but I’m so jealous begging him, please just take me.

Big bad me I tell myself every night, however, in reality I’m afraid of the fight.

As I travel down lonely roads, darkness falls around, looking up at God hoping I make him proud.

I’m definitely not perfect as sometimes I suggest, that’s just me smiling, faking it the best. 

My life as a whole is great no-one could complain, I’m fighting my own demons, I’m the only one to blame. 

Reality sets in, look at me I’m here, it’s okay to smile sometimes there’s nothing to fear. 

Ending my song as frightening as it may be, I’ll never forget my Dad and the man he made me.