Secrets

These deep dark secrets that I hold
Inside
There so embarrassing, so shameful that
Sometimes I cry
 
I want so bad to make
Amends
But I’m scared that the people I love I’ll
Lose in the end
 
The things I did you wouldn’t
Believe
There’s probably nothing I could say to
Put your mind at ease
 
If you knew my secrets would cause so much
Anguish
Would you hate me?
Call me heartless and selfish?
 
Trying to be someone I wasn’t had me doing
Horrible, unthinkable acts
Please Lord, is there a way to take them
Back?
 
I feel so much disgust
I feel so much regret
I wonder if the people I hurt will ever
Forget
 
Now that my mind is no longer clouded
No longer diseased
I can apologize to the one’s I’ve
Deceived