SEDUCED INTO FIRE

A loveless marriage is the cruelty I abided in

So I invented my own freedom in this way:

I wanted nothing

I depended on no one

I expected nothing

I submitted to this mantra completely

Which shackled my compliance

but injured my soul.

My life, I was reading backward…

Back to the instance where I ceased to grieve.

Maniacally selfish, fixated on the past

Aspiring to recall happiness.

Resigned, I dismissed the distance

It would take to escape my present lethargy;

To traverse into the past to locate the moment

When I wasn’t alone, when I was loved.

I failed, unable to recapture what I had abandoned.

Then you came to corrupt my resolve.

You offered nothing but what I wanted.

I was seduced into the fire realizing I

Had strength but no courage to resist

Enslavement to my requisite submission

Which mocked the mantra I had lived by.

So I walked into your arms

Knowing you'd consume me.

You WERE my catharsis…

I want everything

I rely

I anticipate

You ARE my commandment.

My compass now has a progressive direction:

       into your heart which heals my soul.