Self inflicted

Sick of lessons
Sick of digressing
Sick of fuckin shit up
Sitting shook in my mess n

Im sick of buzzin
Living disgustingly

It sucks to be so Stuck in reverse,
You cant see the dust for me.

Feeling like a lamb to the slaughter 

Sat at rock bottom tryna dig for some water.

Surrounded by nothing but the shit that i've caused.

Prayin so much you would think its applause. 

Try to ignore it 
But bliss feels like torment, 
At war with my all as im fallin no more.

I am fallen, 

appauling aint scoring the surface of all this.
I'm sordid on purpose,
Exploring the worst is my calling.

Went all in..
And followed that rabbit 
down holes To bad habits
took both them tablets
Told morpheus "av it!"

Glorious savagery 
Flaw in this tapestry

Boredom is apathy.