Series of GROWING mistakes

1
“People don’t appreciate you”
but that’s okay.
I’m not meant to be
understood by everyone,
I’m not meant to be
liked by them all.

I’ve always been different,
not loved, not liked,
but at the same time,
not hated, not disliked.

Trying to fit in
by leaving me behind
putting me in the box
so I could be by their side.

Shaping me for them
loosing me instead
I drown in condemn
words left unsaid.

2
I said no.
Not out of contempt
or fear or guilt.
I said no.

What I did I did for me.
Not for others
not for them
not because I should.
And it felt good.

I wanted to say
but didn’t wanna be
under so much stress
so instead of saying yes
I said no
and didn’t let go
of how it felt
to finally say no.

3
Change is coming
she’s taking me with you
change is coming
there’s nothing you can do.

Change is coming
I’m running the other way
change is coming              
there’s nothing to say.

Change is coming
are you afraid of it
change is here
run away and be free.

For whatever comes next
whatever is meant to be
I’ll be ready
as ready as I can be.

4
Whatever comes
before or behind
never look back
never turn around.

Whatever comes
will come
its start is now
poof
and it’s gone.

Whatever comes
will stay or leave
but it’s up to you
if it makes you love
or it makes you bleed.

5
In war
everything is possible.

All lies,
betrayal, defeat,
everything that comes
from underneath.