Series of GROWING mistakes

6
The little one I knew
changed in a day
talking different, walking different
doesn’t even sound the same way.

Something’s always wrong,
not how it was meant to be
always fighting, always angry
nothing on what we can agree.

Something’s always bothering
annoying or annoying or annoying
never its fault, never its problem
there’s nothing more adoring.

The little one outgrew itself
now in some teenage rage
forever fighting, forever crying
forever locked in the cage.

7
Wasn’t supposed to find out
wasn’t supposed to hear
don’t come any closer,
don’t come near.

The problem with secrets
is that I know.
The problem with knowing
is that they grow.

Even if never
told to a soul
they grow bigger and bigger
they swallow you whole.

All secrets come out
if you want them or not
save yourself the troubles
and finish with the dot.

8
He’s not a reward,
he’s the very opposite of it.
He’s the mistake you’ve made
the promise you broke
the one that took too much
the one that broke your hope.

He’s not worth it,
he’s not the one.
He’s the mistake I’ve made
the nightmare I wake from
the kiss not meant to be
the one I don’t want to see.

He’s the one everyone wants,
he’s the one everyone gets,
he’s the one everyone forgets.
The promise about everything
the promise for tomorrow
the promise of no sorrow.

9
No, because
why would I cry
for him to come back
when all he did
was stab me in the back.

No, because
why would I scream
on top of my lungs
when I’m out of air
and out of lies.

No, because
why should I care
why should I frown
when all you did
was look down.

No, because
why should I have
something more to excuse
when I’m all out
and you’re just obtuse.

(obtuse=slow to learn or understand, lacking intellectual acuity)

10
I’m trapped.
My actions aren’t mine
my words are a lie.

I’m trapped.
A stranger is talking for me
not even my eyes are the ones to see.

I’m trapped.
Listening from outside
nowhere left to hide.