Series of GROWING mistakes

11
Looking around
are you a friend or a foe?
Why the pretending
all secrets and lies
aren’t you tired of wearing
all masks and disguise?

Being a fake
never for real
covered with jokes
covered with steal.

What is real
what is pretend
this is a game
that will never end.

Who are you
when game ends
when no one is near
there’s no friends.

No holding back
you are just you
nothing better
than to be true.

12
Whatever, forget about it.
It’s not that important
not big of a deal
probably this problem
is not even real.

All in my mind
problem keeps growing
hard to talk about it
and it’s not slowing.

Whatever,
forget about it,
Without mention
I will just quit.

13
Feeling miserable
not slowing down
gates are opening
dragged by the hound.

Feeling lonely
heart acking with fear
choosing blindly
future still unclear.

Feeling okay
nothing to do with thee
after a long time
finally feeling free.

14/1
Dreams carried me too far
   I got lost in the skys
trusted them in a beat
   lost in the stars
no hesitation
   floating on milky way
cries or resist.
   where can I stay?

Carried in space
   Don’t want to come down
floating in grace
   spinning in head
not knowing all I need
   what is up, what is down
   is just some love and space.
no one will ever know.

14/2
Dreams carried me too far
   Carried in space
trusted them in a beat
   floating in grace
no hesitation
   not knowing all I need
cries or resist.
   is just some love and space.

I got lost in the skys
   Don’t want to come down
lost in the stars
   spinning in head
floating on milky way
   what is up, what is down
where can I stay?
   no one will ever know.

15
Who can I trust
   This is a new year
when no one is near?
   I just want to disappear.

On who can I rely
   No one to wander
for the silent cheer?
   cause no one is near.