Series of GROWING mistakes

16
You dress like it
you act like it
might as well be it.

Changed for the better?
No, changed for the worse…
I never liked being
your second choice.

Switch them around
no one will know
knife cuts deep
the ending is slow.

17
I want what I can’t have
I need what I’ll never get
out of touch, out of sight
so easy to forget.

The want is near
so close to mine
the want and need
so close to entwine.

The need is growing
deep inside
all that’s needed
is for me to decide.

18
I just turned 23
all the world still to see.

Don’t know if I feel
young or dumb
or old and gray
won’t live past autumn.

All these lives
lived in one
there was pain
but it was fun.

I just turned 23
hope my life
is like Yangtze.

(Yangtze=longest river in Asia with an interesting shape – like paragraph)

19
I am scared
of what’s to come
and who I’ll be
I am a mystery.

I am scared
don’t know what I want
or what I need
will I succeed?

I am scared
of what is wrong
of what is right
and what is out of spite.

I am scared
of making wrong moves
following wrong people
it’s not that simple.

20
I like my body
I really do
but sometimes loving it
is a bit harder to do.

I don’t hate my body
I really don’t
but sometimes hating it
is helping too.

Something to overthink
something to focus on
trying to shut my eyes
other mistakes are gone.

I like my body
I really do
but sometimes hating it
is easier to do.

21
I don’t want to go
leave family and friends
and everyone I know.

I don’t want to let go
the grip loosens
now I have no choice.

Not ready but still going
future around the corner
send away the warner.

Looking for no trouble
looking for no fun
I just want to be done.