Silenced

I cant be in pure silence

my thoughts begin to run wild

im trying to deal with this world and what it has to offer

it has to be the hardest thing thus far

god says your gonna go through trials and tribulations throughout your life

so why is it that Ive added more to my plate?

Between school the future and you

oh you have no idea how i hold it all together and at any moment i just pop

just like that the tears start flowing the voices can no longer be silenced and im forced to deal.........

to deal with all the choices Ive made the good the bad and the questionable

can i really do this?

did i really do that?

somebody please wake me from this dream

or maybe it'll be all if i just tell all or just scream

but no i keep the voices inside while i try and hide...

the little lies i tell...."don't worry im fine"

except no one knows the truth

im struggling to face life to realize in the end i mist pay the price of the choices Ive made thus far maybe once Ive owned up to the decisions the voices will be silenced and ill finally come to peace with the way Ive been living