Slipping away

I feel my soul slipping away, more and more each and everyday.  I think she believes things that aren't true, and all I wish, is to start anew.  I need her love, her heart and joy, but something inside me feels as if its all a ploy. My mind wanders to the things that are dark, but everything for her is still in my heart. Some days she's happy, some days she's kind, but other times it feels like I'm being pushed from her mind. I am so lost and and so very tired, I only wish to be re-admired. My only hope that clings to me now, is the thought one day our love once again will be renowned. I can't escape the pain inside, all that's left for me is to ride out the tide. I swear all this straight from me, that no matter what happens, my love for her will never ever leave.
                          -J.Bowers 2016