Someone
A bit of a rant

Walls upon walls break down at your touch,
A simple smile makes my heart melt,
I know I shouldn't fall for your charm,
Because there's always someone else,
Guilt swells every time I see you both,
Sure I don't say no,
But I couldn't commit myself to anyone,
I run from commitment,
It's an irrational fear,
But a pathological one.
Your eyes enchant me,
Your smile bewitches me,
But there's another person who can do the same,
I could never commit to just one,
So I chose to run from you,
Hide from you,
Build up all my walls again.
Their smile makes my heart race,
Their eyes light up just like yours,
The only difference is the feelings you both give off,
They make me feel safe, secure and protected,
You make me feel calm, peaceful and happy,
Both of you make me laugh,
Smile,
Shout.
I love you to the moon and back,
But I could never commit to anything more than this,
There's always someone else stopping me,
Their feelings,
Their smile,
Their charm,
And their hugs.

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Comments
Hi Bell! This one really resonates with me, I can admit, that I am in a similar situation... but selfish me decided who to be with and still wants more... not really sure what I want these days...
Sorry, I really don't have answers to this one Bell but I can understand completely. Here for you, if you want to talk. Kind regards. TFOTS
Yeah, its hard sometimes but its always nice to come onto here and just let it all loose. Thanks for your comment
I feel the conflict passion and resolve! enjoyed the"rant" ............Jim
What touches the poetic heart of me here.....is the honesty......this is not just some 'rant' (in my humble opinion) but an insightful treatise.....an opening of the flood gates of self-comprehension......it is one of the most soulfully poetic insights I have ever read on COSMO...and I have been here since 2014.......I think, that as you poured these words onto paper, you found some solace within yourself ......this is the stuff of great poetry.....you wait a month or so.....come back to it......see it with your fresh eyes......and understand for yourself BELL!!..... there are very few words that you would change/edit.....my very best poems have been edited at least twice.......I'm just dropping some minor advice here......THIS is an amazing write......sculpt it!!.....then send it to the magazines and publishers.....I think you'll be surprised at the results!!.....Honesty!! ALWAYS works my friend!!......Bravo!!......PINNED!!....great work dear poet!!.......Peace.....T xo : )
I'm with Tony! I just don't have his eloquence!.............Jim
Thanks heaps! I struggled to find the right words in the second stanza and still I fretted that it didn't feel right. I always try to write from the heart and soul but my two ranting poems have just been everything on the matter, I just let it all loose. I wasn't sure how people would view this one but I'm glad you enjoyed it.