SOUL

 You never wanted love,only admiration

You dream of bright lights and crowds screaming your name

I wish it was enough for me to whisper your name

into an endless night of ecstacy

Our own world that we don't need everyone to see,

because feeling it is enough

And its sacred, it belongs to us

I don't exist to you in this world

I am invisible

I don't serve any purpose

I don't provide the gateway to your dreams

Of your every move being documented

Your thoughts and words a public library

But only the ones that show the world that you are always right

and they are wrong

You are always a victim and never anything else

You love freely and bravely

And only under the condition that the ones you choose to be seen with are attractive, popular and financially abundant

You speak of life as though it were a beautiful natural thing

Much unlike the one you live

And people as though they are worthy of your empathy and compassion,

which you only pretend to extend when it serves yourself

and your public image

I wonder what you think about, what you feel inside

Your life is a reality show and everyone is watching

So make sure you rehearse your lines

Say all the right things, be funny and witty and charming,

look like a work of art that was made to be seen

You don't need a message or a gift to share with your fans

Your message clearly states "LOVE ME"

And you are a gift

Everything you do and say was carefully constructed for their enjoyment and admiration

You think that you have power over everyone

But you are their slave

I will never bow down to you and you know that

But I will love you so deeply that you will finally understand who you really are

Just how beautiful and perfectly imperfect you were before you sacrificed your soul

Your innocence and naaivety was never something to be ashamed of

Being soft and kind is who you are

You don't have to be anything else

You don't have to hide behind the mask of a god

You don't have to seek worship when you have seen and felt unconditional love

A love that you have not shown yourself

You say that you love yourself but I don't believe you

Real love isn't deluded or superficial

It doesn't punish you for being imperfect or for making mistakes

It doesn't tell you that you are anything less or more than you are

It doesn't taunt you and call you weak

It makes you strong

Strong enough to stand alone regardless of what the crowd does

I know who you are

Every dark corner, every sad smile

Every hope, fear and secret wish

And my love for you is infinite

You see the thing is,

I don't care about your ego

I care about your soul