Spiritual Struggle

I have the book before me
But i can't find the pages
And when the pages are open
I can't find the words

The words to make sense of it all
But the words i see
The words infront of me
Makes no sense at all

My knowledge doesn't strech that far
Everytime i try to figure it out
My thoughts rage a war
On what it's all about

I've been told so many stories
Each with a different plot and end
Different in everyone's memories
Each to fit a different trend

I don't know what's true anymore
I mean how can you know for sure
When so many tell you what to believe
Everyone is able to lie and deceive

I am lost on this road
If i'm even still on one
Questioning everything becomes a heavy load
It's easier to just run

But will that get me anywhere
This road becomes so long
I want to end up somewhere
Somewhere i belong

This road has no end!
It keeps making a bend
And then it starts over
Just when i thought i was closer

It pulls me back to the start
And i've gained nothing
Everything i believed is torn apart
And i can't shake this feeling

This feeling of hopelessness
That maybe i should give up
The road has turned into a rut
My confusion is too merciless

Yet something pulls me up
Even though i'm stuck
Something tells me to keep trying
That maybe i'll find "it"

Whatever "it" is
I can only guess
And the road won't be easy
But i'll get there eventually