Still Thinking

Thought of you, still thinking.
Why have you kept yourself so distant?
Was it something I said, something I didn't.
That made you turn away, made you lose interest.
If so, all I can do is extend love.
Ask for forgiveness. 
Not giving you warm words to close the distance. 
Freedom to express our difference.
Forgetting about the past, the things we once had.
Focusing on the now as I attempt to flip your frown upside down.
Smile.
I desire to heal the wounds I have afflicted on your beautiful skin, wrap my arms around you in the cold weather where I left you.
My actions have not matched my words; to trust me once again, I comprehend might sound/seem a bit absurd.
Crazy love, we can both agree.
Trying to put the pieces back together.
Puzzled by defeat.
It takes time to commit 
It takes patience 
It takes love 
It takes two 
It takes us
Still thinking of you I don't want my words misplaced. 
Still thinking of you as I plea my case. 
Still thinking, still thinking even after your decision to leave. 
On my knees not yet for proposal; I crave our unity, a love that never flees.
Your stead fast loyalty I'll keep.
Remembering the kiss that brought conviction. 
The day I abandoned you.
My home, my safe haven. 
I am professing my brokenness; the brokenness which led to your distressed, causing you to be a widow.
Show mercy upon my selfish deeds in order for our hearts and mind to be set free.
Don't resent holding grudges against me; I won't relent in seeing ends meet.