Stop making me not hate you

I want to hate you
I need hate you
You hurt the very fabric of my being
You lied 
Your words to others is what hurt the most
But Everytime your around
Your smile makes my heart beat fast
I get these little knots in my stomach
Damn it I want and need to hate you
I don't want to forgive you
I need you to learn
But those damn eyes oh how they sparkle​ when you laugh
Every inch of my mind wants to see that forever
Some how you lite a light of fire in the darkness of my mind
That warmed up my soul
I don't want to feel like this
Because your going to make it go away
The minute you lie again
Stop making me not hate you