Poem -

suicide

As I plead for help and no one answers
I slowly break down and cry myself to sleep every night 
I fight to survive but slowly I start to lose 
I can’t help but to feel empty with no soul 
I never thought I would suffer
At the hands of the ones I loved
 I look for the easiest way out
Without hurting the one the ones I love

I slowly sink in the ground slowly rotting from the inside out 
I pray that someone will find me before it is too late 
But no one heeds my cry and no one hears my last prayer 
I have forever lost my soul 

I guard my heart the only thing I have left 
I’m carful who I hand the key to 
In fear 
In fear of being hurt again
 To suffer at the hands of the ones I love most 
 I try to fight for one last night 
But as I awake for my peaceful sleep
I am forced to face what I fear most 
I cry till I can’t see anymore 
I fight though school and I sit by myself for the last time
When I get home I grab my blue knife 
I quickly put it to my red skin
 I think why it must come this way 
I slit my wrist and watch the beautiful red blood flow 
I start to feel light as numbness covers my body
As I hit the floor I cry my last tear and my world goes dark

As I flout up to haven I think 
There is some miskate 
And a woman dressed in white walked up to me 
She said 
My child your life is over and now u will have peace 
There has to be some error 
She answered no my child god forgave u 

All I can say is I’m sorry Denise 
I’m sorry that I was always hateful to u 
I’m sorry dad I’m sorry I could not open up
I’m sorry foxy I’m sorry u lost your daddy 
I cry as I say I’m sorry Nichole Om sorry 
That I hurt you more then I hurt anyone else
 I just didn’t see a another way out

I look down and see my dad cry
I can’t hold it anymore I cry and I feel her wrap her wings around me
Trying to comfort me but I keep crying 
I feel each tear rip though my body like knifes
And my hearts gets heaver and heaver 
I beg her to help me 
But alas she cannot help 
I am forever cursed to hurt the ones I love most  

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Jimmy Arnold

Jonathon,

Your free style is power beyond
belief and it appears you will venture the lengths to the end of the
earth to prevent hurting the ones you love but the one to be loved the most
yourself takes the blunt end of all deals..Your heart has compassion for all
you encounter but none to be found for the souls presenter...The body feels the
pressure of wanting to give up but the heart seems to hold on to the only
sanity it has left, the sanity to want to tell, all that will listen, that the
body is weary and can go on longer..The heart has given all it has to give and
now it is crying out, for the receivers to step in and become the compassionate
givers that you were always known to be. For the body, has no longer the
capabilities, to travel the road it has been given to venture in life, for  as long as it has and the heart,(the poor
heart) carries the weight of the world…It cries out louder than it ever has
before to be heard, no matter by who, it cries for all the people, it lent
itself to in their times of need, it cries for the God that made it, it even
cries for the body, that contains it, to please wake from the surrendered slumber
which it has sadly sub comb to … Your poems speaks the words of a wounded heart,
trying to reach out from the abyss, that it has been lunged into, head felt to
be placed desperately below water, although still able to breathe fine but not
for too much longer. Yet the help it knows exist somewhere out there for reason
doesn’t hear you and leaves you wondering, why it doesn’t take the time, to
care to respond….You claim to have lost something very dear to you,(your soul)
well we here on Cosmo Funnel has found the item of loss, here in every poem you
have posted and it,(that said to be  lost
soul), has an amazing story to be told and in an amazing form of free style, it
has acquired, whether from the accrued pain or from the skills that had already
been birth and  the dramatic style, can’t
be matched…Refine the passion It contains just as we have and feed on it, I guarantee,
you will find yourself, your self esteem and belief, in what you not only can
do for others but still can, for yourself as well and in your find, shall you
be enriched with the many treasures, in which you have entrusted to us the
readers, through the presentation of these alluring poems, also as  a divine replenishment for yourself…..

Sincerely
from a friend,

Jimmy

P.S.
Thanks for the recommendation of the reading of this poem and to the (ANGEL)
that recommended you to have read from….If you don't mind, can i present your writings to others i think will benefit well from all you write and show them the art of poetic healing through writing..Friends from this site and a lot of what you have written,has allowed me to wake the part of me, that i as well, had began to allow fall deep below my comfort zone.. The candle i once allowed to burn brightly and continuously, has now been relit and leads me once again comfortably down a path of hope and inner contentment...Thank you
immensely.     

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AUTHOR WILLIAMS...

Johnathon Runyan,

Excellent write. My applause, My nomination

  • I look down and see my dad cry
  • I can’t hold it anymore I cry and I feel her wrap her wings around me
  • Trying to comfort me but I keep crying 
  • I feel each tear rip though my body like knifes
  • And my hearts gets heaver and heaver 
  • I beg her to help me 
  • But alas she cannot help 
  • I am forever cursed to hurt the ones I love most  

Regards & Love

WILLIAMSJI MAVELI

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Jimmy Arnold

Hey brother Williamsji,

Thanks for the response, this poet is extremely gifted with his talent....Would love to see a lot more of his works, on the bad experiences as well as the good, in his life....

Sincerely,

Jim

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AUTHOR WILLIAMS...

Hi dear brother (Sir) Jim,

I understand his verses, I shall keep an eye, By the Bye, Poetess Piusha wrote a birthday poem on my birthday, ie on 23rd April, Did you see that ? Just mentioned, Give my regards & Love to all your family members.

Your Brother,

WILLIAMSJI MAVELI

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Jimmy Arnold

That i have not not Brother Williamsji but most definitely headed that way as we speak....And "HAPPY YOUR DAY" and hope all blessing to be, flow as smooth as the water, which you ever so gracefully walk upon.....

Take Care Dear Brother,

Jimmy

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