sweet Jesus!!!

I forget mostly
why it is I came
this place is too familiar now
it binds me to insane

this is prison like no other
it's walls hold up no glass no
stone
it is frighteningly white, endless
and cold
though, here at least
I am free to roam

I think it is god's prison
I think it's god that put me
here...
it all comes to me now as
if tinkling chimes
it comes to me now
my memory clears...

I came searching for you
and so god locked me here...
to see my time through, he
has you
locked up too

there is a jailor here, beguiling
and sweet
he knows every inch of my name
he calls to me often, I do not
respond
I am afraid of him always...
afraid of the pain

he has soft feet, strange set eyes
familiar almost,
as if in disguise
he says you are with him
but this is not true at all
you are not here, not here
I know that he lies

I will not go ever,
though I've a feel for his name
but he is not you, not you...
you can't ever be again

but he calls and I hear him
so gentle with my name
I hear him...he cries, he knows
I do the same

M P 16/1/22