Symptomatic Conveniences

Love should not be disregarded or abused in any way,
The way you’ve got me twisted up 
confused in disarray,
Your up ,your down plus all around dragging my heart and spirit with you,
I can not believe I fell in so deep,
to the point I could not see,
living a lie of the deepest find and I swear you had all of me,
Its so heartbreaking you know, that we couldn’t get it right,
Deep down I believe you knew it all in hindsight,
The verbal torture has won this round , I’ve lost myself and need to be found ,
The person you are , how I make you display,
is no good for us both - we can’t go on another day,
I have to let go and move on with my life,
as we both know now my boys are meet with strife,
no more wasting time when we know what to do,
you let go of me as I let go of you,
I don’t wish you bad or misfortune please believe,
I have to be left alone,
left alone to grieve,
there is no one ahead that I am planning to meet,
I need to be just me for now as I’m accepting this defeat,
I don’t know how you will respond to this,
as I really don’t know you ,
how your mind portrays this world,
only you know what is true ,
but only within yourself I add , 
as for me you can not say ,
I know now that our colours are evolving into grey,
You are you and I am me , us at the moment equals Misery,
so do as you will hate and turn sour,
I will not give in that is my power,
This is what is right and what’s meant to be ,
So I end this now by setting you Free . 

Jess Higgott