The Ache of a Heart

My heart aches... my eyes water... I breathe in deep to relieve my feelings just enough to turn them away.

That is where it starts... the loneliness, the burden that I suppress upon myself... unwilling to show emotion to others in fear that I will become weak... prey for the evil to consume 

I feel the changes, they start out slow... anger becomes me, but in away that I am not aware of... I act upon this anger, sub-conscienciously it takes over me.

I look for love just to throw it away... my heart that felt so much pain, suddenly feels nothing. Is this the outcome of never expressing your emotions? Trying so hard not to be weak... not wanting such a kind heart to hurt or has the very same evil I have tried to shield myself from overcome me? 

My friends what is weak? A person who loves and longs for the same in return? Willing to sacrifice for the ones that are loved? Or is it the ones who have hardend their hearts and let evil prevail because of their owns fears of being hurt, and thus evil has overwhelmed them to hurt not to be hurt! 

Is this how it all starts... with the ache of a heart?