The Battle

No words can describe, this pain an emptiness I feel deep inside, the dark thoughts haunt more and more, I don't know how much more I can endure, they appear more often then they use to, suffocating me til I want them to be true, I fight it off as much as I can, but I jus don't understand, why do I hurt so bad, these thoughts are driving me mad, I jus want them to go away, I want to once feel that I'm ok, I'm drowing in this ocean of mine, thinking it's only a matter of time, I'm still fightin with every ounce I have left in me, but if you look deep enough in my eyes you will see, just how exaughsted my soul is, how letting it all go sounds so bliss, I scream for help but no one can hear me, I bow down and say "God this is my final plea, make the pain go away I beg of you, I'm so sorry I just don't know what else to do", I whisper "I love my kids more then life," I know my thoughts aren't right, I can't take this anymore, but the demons are gettin harder to ignore, I lay in bed and close my eyes, and pray I don't see the sunrise.