the cancer within me

The cancer within me has all ready set.
The cancer within me Is attached to the very world around me.
The cancer within has set.
Like molten lava hissing and bubbling through the crevices of the deep blue ocean floor,
Clinging to the earth and expanding it,
inch by inch seething that little bit extra more....

So my vessel is a land to be expanded on.
To spread out and grow,
To wake the demon within me till my life is gone..
The molten lava is the devils song, 
Like the cancer in my body with its devilish pain.
Never before will my body be the same again....

They will take a leg,
replaced with a peg,
To rid half the cancer they see before.

The jobs they do these days are wonders,
for the past 12 years of this my mind has pondered.
Dipping in and dipping out of my thought pool,
Arising,
making me ever tearful and thoughtful....
Is this the way god intended?
To make my body broken and far from mended?
To this end the drs have tended,
I'm not stupid,
For I know that this body is now forever dented.
On me all the devils anger is vented,
To take my vessel and make sure what's left is ended. 
But this is where my will steps in,
Pushes back the devil from deep within.
Fighting all my fears,
Fighting back all of the pain I've felt these many years.
Fighting for what I believe in,
and not listen to the devils haunting, taunting devilish jeers.
I've come this far, 
So why stop now,
I've defied the drs,
God only knows how.
6 weeks in the eve of 2004,
to now with 2 years left apparently knocking a battering ram at heavens proverbial outer front door.
they were all wrong then so why not now,
12 years I've surpassed the gallows how?.....
No matter how I am eternally grateful,
you've given me three boys to fill my plate full.
They keep me going,
they keep me here,
their love has me grinning from ear to ear.
They are my salvation,
my light and my hope,
my everything,
as long as they're here I know won't die,
not even by cancers rope just there dangling.
So smile to the devil and don't let him win, 
lift up your head and take whatever he gives you,
right there,
square on the chin.