The one that got away...

Once I loved a girl
Whenever she went inside a room time just stood still
Like the air went in some kind of phase
Whenever I tried to breath it just faded away

Her face was angelic
Her smile so innocent
Her body warm and pure
Her heart an inspiration
She was the total package, the big deal and 
one of the most beautiful creatures I've ever met

With a million words to say and focused eyes 
I watched her
I followed her
I studied her
That at a certain point I knew her better than anyone
A certain interest became a rock solid obsession

As I couldn't eat, nor sleep, let alone think
without having her within every context of my vocal expression or desired images
Dreaming of being with her
Dreaming of kissing her
Dreaming of sleeping and having sex with her
That at a certain point I knew this was a different feeling (Love)

Frozen stiff
Scared within the edges of my shoes
With sunken courage and crawling toes
I approached her and reached out

Once I loved a girl
Whenever she went inside a room time just moved fast 
Like a flash , like the blink of an eye
Whenever I tried to spent time with her, the possible moment had already passed

With not a single word to say and desperate eyes
I saw her walk away
I understood she didn't knew me
I cried every time before I went to sleep
That at a certain point I knew she didn't notice 
A certain heart filling feeling became a painful burden

As I couldn't forget, nor forgive, let alone sacrifice
all of the thoughts which ended up killing her, erasing her existence from an already disturbed mind
Transforming her angelic face
Taking away her innocent smile
Destroying her heart as it was imperfect like mine
That at a certain point I knew this was a different feeling (Hate)

Deadly silent
Like a shadow on the wall
With murderous intent and lustful gut
I let her go and stayed the hell away

and yet till this day I'm still waiting... for another time to change...
where I'm the one able to control how slow or how fast everything goes.

(TIP: Listen to Lord Huron - The night we met)