The Way I Am

Some days I'm happy others I wish I was dead

 for who I am tomorrow might not be who I am today

​​​​​see one minute I'm  early the next I might be late

 play I like pink, lace and frills

 but tomorrow death to me might seem a thrill

The voices  in my head don't  seem to  go away 

At night  my dreams are  as real as  day

For my identity  is damaged  and  let  in the  abyss

And if I died today  I fear I will not be missed

I struggle day to day through many don't know

See to me my reality  is like a horror  show

The threat in my life has long went away

But the memories make it seem as thro its still  here  today 

For why do I tell you this you  may  ask

Well it's not quite as simple as  my past

See some might look at  me as broken

But truth be told my eyes have seen  hell with a gold token

Yet to me in my struggle a degree I hold high

Because most don't make it out no matter how  hard  they  fight 

So yeah I'm off, not right in the head