The weeping nun

Tears falling down into my hands
Turning into rivers of blood as I stand
Weeping as I walk amongst the empty rooms
As I walk inside a maze with an infinite amount of doors

Thinking of the past while my mind get's infected
While I'm trying to forget how many times my body got neglected
Abused by those I once called friends, a bunch of kind men
I still can smell their odor, a reminder of their stench as they forced themselves upon me

While chanting my lullaby, I pray to my god
Asking him for forgiveness, telling him I feel lost
Showing him my wounds, the skin that's tearing apart
At the end I tell him the names of all those people I condemn
Asking him for forgiveness yet again

Slowly but surely I can feel my heart once so bright and full of life, turn dark
The voices of regret in my head start to turn numb
My eyes once filled of hope turned into a hellish flame
My body which I disgust now, disfigured and as white as a corpse
My emotions just filled of hate, my motto changed from 'saving and helping' to "have no remorse"

Agreeing to hunt at night and accept the shadows that l am hiding behind
To sin, to feed my bloodlust and crush those that destroyed my light
With black teeth and nails, scratching symbols in every wall I pass
To show these men, I'm right behind them...

and I'm out of mercy and regret!