to my best friend

I don't think I could write
100 poems
and still fully get across
my feelings,
so you'll have to settle
for this mediocrity.
I can't help but feel
like I'm not worthy
of your friendship.
You've been so good to me,
and I don't know
if I've always been good
for you,
but you never left.
I never had to watch
you back up bit by bit
and wonder how long
it'd take for you to break out
into a run.
Even if that may have been warranted.
Your loyalty far withstands
the test of time,
as it's coming two years
since our chain dance
in gym class,
when I realized
I wanted to know you.
I remember patting myself
on the back
the day I complimented your t-shirt, and we became friends,
because I had sat
on my want to know you
for almost a month.
I have always loved
talking to you,
always craving the easy flow
of our conversations,
the educated tone
with which you speak,
and how comfortable I am
with you.
You've never made me
feel less-than,
even in situations
where I may have been.
I turn to you with things
I don't turn to my family
or long-time friends with.
If I didn't live in a world
where I hate nearly my entire family, I'd say you were like
my sister.
Since that is the world
I reside in,
I'll say you are
my number one confidant,
my level-head,
my voice of reason,
my favourite text notification,
and my best friend.
You've impacted my life
in ways I don't have the tongue
to describe,
and I can't picture myself
not being your friend.
I don't ever want
to not know you.
I hope with all my heart
you find what it is you want
out of life,
and I hope you find someone
who loves you
in the ways you deserve
to be loved.
If you don't,
I'm confident you'll be okay,
because you are a woman
who has never needed
someone else
to make you strong,
and you can do things
I couldn't fathom.
You are destined for
beautiful,
wonderful things,
and I beg everything of the gods who may or may not exist
to let me be around
to watch you achieve
your destiny.
I want to know you
till I don't breathe anymore,
and I want to make sure
you know that.
Never forget your worth,
your importance,
and what you offer
to make this often shitty world
a bit better for anyone
who knows you.
You have always
made it
better.