today i prayed

can i forgive i ask
as the words lost in playing this song
becomes a daily like as a food of life

but i can only wear the words upon my skin
so many words
without disruption or discipline 

yet my only thought remains to the high of the moment
and i keep looking up 
with no doubt 

thinking
in my ways only i can understand
for a feeing of how i am so missed
within myself as me

as the mind lingers into the past of happy ties
my memories of lost and pleasures

but today is time
as it meant to be treated as time
with love
i was told
it was everything that is
or matters

as peace i can survive
i did not understand with my intoxication 

with words from who
but the whispers
 
and i prayed
God God God i did

yet at times of who i am
i falter
we falter
to a judge of you

as no one looked 
no one paid attention 
as the knives cut 
as the gun ended many and us

now i bow down
to down
to what i was thought from the beginning 

now i am old
now i look at the next 
to the next 

what really is left
today i prayed
i ask