too ALIVE + SO dead

That there's no one to turn to
and nothing to do
That no one alive gets this void
thats now you
That every atom of self has
escaped weeping pores
That darkness is friend and it
shuts every door, that

You're at once vibrant in beauty
Plus dead under grass
So alive and too dead and that
fucks with my head
That the stages are made up
And that grief means alone
That along with your body my
whole self has blown
Away