Twice (My hero academia)

A friend is what I need
I'm so tired of only seeing me
Talking louder and louder, so I can ignore the silence
So I'm still able to keep refusing, how close I'm of being consumed by the madness
Leading up to this very moment, what a mess

A criminal is what people label me as
Fighting, stealing and doing whatever it takes to survive
Literaly clawing my way out
To this very day I still can't understand, how people can blame me
For just trying to be a part of society, of life

Creating an illusion that I don't stand alone
That there's a place for my kind that I can call a welcoming home
A world that accepts me for who I'm
Not some kind of animal to be beaten with a stick, but just a lonesome man
Trying to find love

With empty heart and fake smile
I tried cloning myself, to stop the pain for a while
But at the end it didn't matter as it came back to me
The sickening image of death
And nobody noticing it but me

So I swore on oath of joining a clan
Acting out like my hands are tied, that I've killed all... beasts, women and men
To hide my true intentions, that of a disturbed man
So I did what I did, whatever task they laid upon me
Ha...ha...ha it paid off, one has recognized me even as I bleed and fall to my knees

With gentle touch she strokes my hair and looks into my tearing eyes
She can't understand why I'm crying, but that didn't matter to me
For so long I dreamt of this moment and kept wondering when it would come, to be free
The truth never expected it to be, the final moment of me living, as my clones starting to die

As I'm turning into ashes now, I acknowledge my defeat
Yet I'm not sad, as my victory is so much greater
Not even bothered by all what I had to do, the receiving hate
Because at that particular time I died, with all I've ever wished to see
A friend...