Uncreated touch

I stepped out of the fog that rose from the stream
To find myself placed amongst the birds and the bees
An innocent completion of my future is bleak
Scrummaging to find food for my baby to eat
I ate the blackberries after the puca cursed them dead
Now the thorns from the bushes are stuck in my feet
Every step that I take they cut deeper than deep
Let the pain bring you back to life again
Don't let the shame make you hide your face
You know I feel like a disgrace
Soon enough the time will pass 
Hopefully I will be at peace at last
If these four walls could talk
You'd have to cover both your ears
Sometimes I give myself a fright
Better listen up real clear
I've been dysfunctional
I've been begging for my years
I've put myself on hold
I couldn't let go of all my fears
This whole town sucked me dry
I couldn't tell them anymore
I never wanted this as my life
I couldn't help from taking every stone
They threw and throw it right back at them
If I was to start, I wouldn't know where to stop
I'll give you the full story
I'll give you everything I've got
My dream is to be free 
For that to be a possibility
I'll have to face my fears 
Tell you how to see things the way I see
A beautiful view inside every one of you
The good and the bad
I know inside they are sad
Betrayed by a villainous society
In school they tell you to be nice 
Always think twice 
what happens when it’s not me being displeasent
Authority with a face of aggression
Bitter deep down
You know that its true
You see my flare my passion
You wish you had it too...
This has been the scariest decision
I've ever had to make
On one hand it could be heaven
On the other fire and flames
I don’t think I can move my feet,
Standing at the crossroad
I feel I’ve been defeat
I've never known the middle
It’s either high or its low
No level ground
Just hanging loose on a rope
Dangling in the wind
On a mid-summer’s day,
I know I'm out here on my own
So, I started to sway
Breaking myself off of every rock
I've never been as alive
It’s the pain, I forgot
The anger, the hate
It gives me strength
When I aint
Never had anyone to rely on
It’s beyond mistrust,
A common loss of faith
Can leave us caught up
In an unfaithful lust
It’s hard to see the bottom
when I've never known
I could reach the top
One hand in front of the other
I'll give it all that I’ve got
I need him here
I need him now
Just show me the way
Just show me how
I feel his love
It can't be sustained
I feel his love
Its wild, untamed
He knows it’s true
He knows it’s real
He knows what to do
How to make me feel
I love him more
When I hate him less
I can't wait for us to be alone
So, I can get him undressed
Just lay down beside me
Together we find peace
Behind this closed door
It’s just you and me
Will he tell me that he wants me?
Tell me something sweet
Tell me we can do this 
That he’s never going to leave
Does he believe in mother earth?
Does he believe her love is real?
Will he be here tomorrow?
When I learn how to be
Loved in this world
Will he set my heart free?
Under this light
He looks so god damn sweet
Can we lay here for hours?
Just lost in the beat
Of his heart thumping
Will he tell me how he feels?
Tell me something honest...
Tell me something real?
Does he believe in happy endings?
Does believe our hearts can heal?
Tomorrow will be ours
if I learn how to be
Loved in this world
Just set my heart free
What is going on
I'm so lost for words
I think I just bit my own tounge
Now my vision is blurred
Did I get this all wrong?
My mind is disturbed
A prisoner to myself
Another lesson unlearned
What is happening to me?
I just threw my heart on the floor
But I'm stronger now
I told you I've grown
My skin it does not burn
I am made of ice
I thought this was real
But you made me think twice
Until the night is bright with pale moonlight
Under twisted branches of faith
I found in this tree a new version of me
I am still free
I've asked these questions knowingly
The answers they did lie beneath
These fallen leaves of gracious despair
I remember when you used to compliment my hair
Now you’re sitting over there beyond tomorrow
I wonder do you feel pain?
Did you ever feel sorrow?
These voices they just talk too much
I never should have listened
I could feel your touch
Implanted in my brain
It’s been driving me insane
Maybe that's just what I am
Just know I never had a plan
I was not in control
I let my body leave my soul
I've forgave myself and admitted I need help
So, fuck what you think I love you then I blink
Under these twisted branches of faith
I found my freedom
I found my place
Under these twisted branches of faith
The stars reline, the whole world shakes
Under these twisted branches of faith
Tomorrow has come, yesterday you were too late
If I made a wish upon a star,
would it take me from the darkness?
Take me away, far
I've been searching for the meaning
Searching for myself
Trying to find an upheaven
So is everybody else
I feel like I sold my soul
To be free
I'm sitting here alone
He never rings me
Just to say hello
How was your day
Remember how you wanted it this way
Now your wish has been granted
Are you happy or sad?
Does the silence make you calm?
or just miserably mad
Are you wishing it happened? 
A different way
Or are you hoping and praying
Today will be the day
You finally wake up
This has all just been a dream
Nothings out of place
As so it seams
You turn around
Catch the glare in his eye
You know this is a fairy tail
This is only lies
For I will never be happy
By my own word and hand
We both played a part
We both lived on this land
Tomorrow has come
I remembered how to fly
So, I soared
Oh, I soared
I soared oh, so high
That I couldn't see the ground
Feels like I'm falling from space
Falling in my nightmare
Why have I been displaced
How can I take back everything that I've said?
When the words have been written down
In more than ink and lead
When the letters have been engraved into your head
If I bite the apple
just take one little taste
Will I be forsaken
Can I control my own faith?
when temptation is a virtue
I never learn from my mistakes
I was dancing with the devil
I ran away from the gate
So, I think this time I can
Say your name out loud
Hear it echo to your heart
Do you feel the thunder in the clouds?
God, I think he's angry
I fear the worst we've yet to see
He knows I have the lock
He keeps searching for the key
I've spelled it out a thousand times
I know I've nowhere left to hide
I plucked my feathers one by one
Now when all the counting is done
Who is going to come save me
Could I ever possibly be free
I don't play nice
I don't play sad
I don't play good
I don't play bad
I won't be there unless you want me to for in the darkness that's when I'll find you
When you remember me in your head
Just know I loved you this time
I'm not better off dead
Take my heart
Take my soul
Take my body
You've taken me whole
I gave him everything he never had
I promised myself I would never be mad
He kicked me when I was down
He knew I’d been kneeling in the dirt
It wouldn't be this way if he didn't want it to be too
with pain,
We learn how to heal
Just be happy trust your body to know what to do
Always think outside the box
Look further than your eyes can see
Be strong and find simplicity
I am the hunted
I am the pray
I am the dark night that turns into day
I am the wind that touches his face
The tidal waves that crash through his gates
I feel like I don't think for myself anymore
Is this all certain is this all sure 
are we all just fucked in the head
My mind is never made up are we really better off dead
I'll give him three chances at faith
I don't know what's next my heart is just erased
I'm cold as the night and warm as the day
I hoped I’d never throw his love away now look
What's been done a monster a nightmare that's what I've become
He asks his questions
I’ll tell him lies
I don't know what I'm trying to hide
I'm running out of air to breath
This darkness it just takes me to another level of a high
A freedom I have never felt
This world is black
Now they’re all going to melt
The flames they burn inside my lungs
The beast is free and the damage is done
Through the grapevine
I sealed my faith
Through the grapevine
He hears it’s too late
I'll never forgive myself
for what I have done
I see the devil
I let my mind just fucking run
Is this what he wanted me to do
You sell me I sell you
I guess that's just the way it goes
The curtains they just never close
Pick yourself up wipe the dust off your feet
Relax
Just remember
How to breath
In faith we find peace
In Jesus we trust
Sometimes I do not believe
I fear the worst has come
and is here to stay
But after the dark night
God gives us a new day
To live on this earth
That's seen so much pain
How will they ever fix me
Will I ever be the same
Only I hold the answer
It’s on lockdown in my brain
When I finally cracked the code
It felt like
my mind was playing tricks
I won’t let it hold me back
I know I’m not crazy
Life is a game
To everyone that has
no love left to give
If you find your INA moment
where you just want to give in
Remember what I told you
Remember how to breath
Hold your head high
And march to the beat
We are all sent
Here by the power from beyond
To show the world some love
To show people how to bond
So, don't forget
That your human
Don't forget that
We’ve all been the dirt
Before we won our freedom
Before you ruled the whole wide world
Cause they will come to follow
But they will always fire rocks
I'll always be here when it gets too hard to swallow
With a message not a song
Your uncreated touch
Touch upon my faith 
Not to put too fine a point on it
but let's call a spade a spade
I've been lying with the dogs
never had a decent meal
Smoking to suppress my anger
will only take longer for it to heal
Narcissistic tenancies
but inside you know I feel 
More than love
More than hate
ill just take another pill
When I'm shaking uncontrollably
Can't find a breath to take
I won't let the voice inside my head
Take over,
I know it’s never too late 
To change my life and better my mind
All you have to do is remember how to find 
my heart, my soul, my sanity
I will not find any clarity
At the bottom of a bottle of gin
Two days on the tear
Can’t remember where I’ve been
I’ll have to remember where I am
And the light that life brings
To stay on my toes
As we grow old our teeth will slowly erode
Our skin gets withered our bones get cold
Don't let the aches and pains misguide you
Your forsaken today but tomorrow is here to remind you
Of a hope that's been lost but never forgot
Most of the time I fear I'm losing the plot
Then I come to realise the true meaning of being alive 
Is to progress and find a peaceful way of life
God said love thy neighbour
I don't believe in thy saviour
The message in the prayer has never left my heart
You want the truth I've been dark
Black as the souls of your feet
If your digging a whole don't dig it too deep
For my direction may change
You will always stay the same
Don't you know you are on the road
On the road that’s made of gold
Following your dreams as you were always told
Beware of the traitors trying to rob you of your spark
You want to show your heartfulness and pride
All they want to see is what hurts you on the inside
What lies Underneath
The broken smile of a man no longer sixteen
Seen things bad things but never by his own hands
He’s kept them clean although blood always seems to land 
When you’re that close to the flame
Surrounded by this shit every day
Temptation will always be there
It’s up to you not to let it win
Getting caught up in the madness
will more than likely be short lived
If I can’t see past the blackness
There will be no more love to give
Surrounded by the traffic
On a Tuesday in Autumn Springs
He hoped to be the man
To come forgive me for my sins
To help me give me guidance
I was too stubborn to let him in
He held the answers to my heart 
Could have thought me how to swim
For all this time I’ve been on a sinking boat
A stone tied to both my feet with a dirty old rope
Waiting for the last wave to crash.
Waiting in fear there’s no turning back 
I am where I am because of decisions I've made
Questionable life choices turn into regretted mistakes
I try not to look at everything with ten thousand contradictions
Second guessing myself
Endlessly surmising premonitions
What could happen it’s like
I already know
A modern day profit
Speaking to you straight from the soul
I walk and talk and act
Like I’ve been here before
There's more than meets the eye here
Of that I’m sure
I've got bricks of gold made of stories untold
Where to start has always been the question

Under the sun lies a world full of land
With people praying but they seem to be dammed
Misguided by power and the shit they shove up their nose
You can find them in a crowd they are the one that are broke
Bend over backwards eating MacDonald’s and sipping on a coke
A lifetime of superheroes fairy tales and smoke 
will leave us wondering about the time we have wasted
Instead of reaching for our dreams we are watching tv and playing PlayStation
We are in the nightmare that we all seek
Addicted to the horror and conflicted misery
Violence and pain are at the centre of the fleet
Most of us are in strife working hard
Still not enough to eat
Slaving away it’s the same shit different day
Neglected by the system is the actuality of today’s misfit youth
There’s just no practicality behind the way we are treated
Left down to a mis formality when I’m gone beyond reaching
All of a sudden
The bells started ringing inside of my head
It’s either start now or be this way until I’m dead
They say they are here to help but nobody wants to listen
 To a girl who day dreams while cleaning the kitchen
Singing every song
I never get a word wrong when I sing it to my son
He’s going to grow one day and help me do the dishes
I sees his future is bright
When he dances with his feet to the beat
It brings me back to life
He’s not even two years old and he's got a mind full of wonder
When he Cry's his cry is louder than lightning and thunder
That's how I know he's got heart full of gold
He's so independent and he's going to make it on his own
He gives me the courage that I need
to go out and live life to the best it could be
Its time for change
its time for life
its time for winning 
its time for doing what's right
its time for patients
its time for prosperity
its time for belief
its time for us to just be
Here in the now 
I promise I will be OK 
I will be alright
For time has a way 
Even in the middle of the night 
When I feel all that pain
Just flooding up my heart 
I know there's a light
I know its not always going to be dark
Even on the outside 
I’m glowing from within 
I feel a new page turning 
I feel it underneath my skin
I've seen the fire burning
I've seen us dancing in the flames
This road has been so lonely
With all this stuck inside my brain
Will you be my guardian Angel
Will you be there when I'm not
Will you tell me that you love me 
That I haven't lost the plot 
Its going to be OK
Its going to be alright
Even in the middle of the night
When the worlds turned its lights out
There's nobody there
ill just turn up the volume
Forget all my fear 
My heart is free 
I have the courage to follow it
The sky is awake 
I Dance under the sun 
Like I can feel the earth shake 
I  am alive 
I feel the surge of adrenaline
As my heart beats in time
my eyelids flicker
my jaws out of line
I wont let the weight of my sins
Crush me on the inside
I’m a good girl
I’ve  tried to do what's right
you’ll be there even in the middle of the night
When the worlds turned its lights out
There's nobody there
I’ll Just turn up the volume  
Forget all my fear