Unimaginable

Wishing away my life to die,
Your one of a kind, I shall not lie.
My heart is heavy from love and lust,
Worth it or not, to die is a must.
To gaze at your face was such a gift,
Married the one, caused only rift.
Blinded by, the happiness I saw,
Together forever, my maturity was raw.
Over the years we grew apart,
Manipulation, deceit, your very smart.
Not long was I, able to catch on,
Projecting and blaming, soon was spawn.
With all these lies, a child was born.
To live this life of disgust, I must warn.
I blame myself for all that has past,
From the beginning, this love wouldn't last.
I knew what it was, but couldn't speak,
The pain it caused, made the soul weak.
Wishing away my life to die,
Your one of a kind, I shall not lie.
This bond we had is broken and done,
Your always right, you've finally won.
At this moment, I take my life,
For always and ever, ill love you, my dear wife.