The Unknown thoughts of an ex Freak.

slit your arm and burn your wrist,

pick your skin and bite your fist.

Go to hell you’re on the list.

bite your lip and hold your thought,

they used to care but I think forgot,

Id sell my soul but its already bought.

They think you're better so you try not to hide

You flash your smile, and show your pride.

tell no one what you feel inside

No longer cut no longer sigh,

no longer will you try to die,

no more closing eyes and screaming why,

Hush my dear, try not to cry.

No one cares its just pity for the lost.

They just know you're in pain, they don't feel your exhaust.

Your soul has no jacket so it burns the frost.

You love who you are but you still blame yourself

you're not insecure you just lost your stealth

just keep dreaming. someday you’ll have wealth.’

You pick your scabs and bite your hand.

tell no one they wont understand.

Someday you will be in your own land.

people use cutting as a cult.

I want to use it because I feel alone.

But i wont; Im too strong.

bre you do belong.

I just keep saying i’m perfectly fine.

maybe someday i’ll really be fine.

They say give it time.

But how much more time.

Months turns to years,

he still did the crime.

Maybe i do show off just a tad.

it does run in the family,

I mean look at my dad,

Just use big words like rad,

always speak loud and never be sad.

Lie to the authority,

say its not rape,

have all fake friends.

my life lost its shape.

Everything thinks its all a mistake,

a minor mix up,

but truly I ache.

oh why this nightmare. When shall I wake?