Wake Up

WAKE UP. awake but i can't see your face. A childlike innocent voice but the pain won't fade away.
Battling with your own symphony. Now sundays(some days) are a waste. I wish i was there to see your face. Your innocent eyes changed and you fade away. nonsense .  we speak volume. All this violence i can't contain. But when you lose your own you lose your values and your  roller coaster  never stop
HELLO! IM HERE!. Secluded in my interior mind hiding behind my misconstrued thoughts. CAN YOU HEAR ME! Alone and hopeless. I COCK BACK AND END IT.! BANG! But why? Do i choose to uplift heavens gates instead of prospering. Why? Can i not  SHED A TEAR.  and lose this russian roulette. DID Y’ALL FORGET ME? I'M STILL HERE! But alone i’ve shed years. But my hineart was too big and i couldn't take it.
ALONE. In my inner thoughts trying  to get by but my anger is building and i won't hid so i finish this game of roulette . and say goodbye.
Love me don't hate me prosper but don't forget me………
WAKE UP!