WALLS

Silenced my voice restrained by fear, words come out then disappear.
Turn the page I’ve been here before, felt once so strong yet delicately I fall.
I believed my walls to be down, yet here I lay on familiar ground.
I yell out, no one hears, please don’t be taken by the fear.

I know better, I thought I did, but the resentment is comforting so I stay with it.
Animosity thick in the air, cuts through me, I bleed despair, my blood-stained image forever there.
Silence a sweet euphoria for one to bathe but used as a weapon one’s sure to decay.
I scope my feelings for a sign of life, where once laid my heart now lays thick ice.

The taste of bitterness upon my tongue, covertly knew along…that you and I do not belong.
We treat each other with no care, disregard for all, that was once there.
Disassociated with no signs to connect, a breakdown that has left us both entirely separate.
So, I write these words that I may heal, to connect with my emotions that I feel are not real.

To reach my psyche before I’m misplaced, to pull myself from the hidden, shine a light on my face.
To remember who I was before, why I repeated old patterns once more.
To take from this hurt and grow ever tall, always remembering to not build those walls.
To know if I was loved so immensely and true, that there would not be a wall that you could not get through.

So, thank you friend for now I see it’s not you who can rescue me.
Actions speak louder and I see loud and clear, that sadly our time has disappeared.