What Have You Done?

Can u tell me one thing...
What have u done to me?
I try to let go
But its like ur spirit is haunting me
But not wanting me
And i really dont want to be like this...
Every birthday for 10 years
U have been my wish
But my wish has yet to come true.
So i find myself dazing
And ficsating on making us work
Then i think to myself
I dont want to get hurt
So i disappear
I disappear with fear
Of the feelings that i have
Hoping that maybe
I can let go of the past
But i dont want to.
I want u...
Every bit of u
I want to take care of u
And love u
And show u what u mean to me
I want to hold u and make love to u
And tell u how well ur pleasing me
Why do u run?
I know u feel our chemistry
Its been strong since day one
When we met
I could tell that u was into me
And then u got into me
Its almost like u was sent to me 
And that thought alone.... 
Kinda gets to me 
Because we will never be 
And it sucks because 
U will never see 
That this friendship we have 
Is more than just fun to me 
And its not supposed to be 
So please... With all honesty 
Tell me one thing... 
What have u done to me?