What he deserves.

((this doesn't rhyme its a sort of dramatic monologue poem, but i like it. thank you for reading :) please leave a comment and tell me how to improve it please!!)

And people sit here and they tell me
Who was he before you
No one may have knew him
But I did
And I sit here and I cry
Because the one I love
The one I truly love
Is gone.
And its my fault.
 
My sadness, my temper
everything about me
Fucked up so bad.
And god I sit here evaluating myself
Every night
Because he was the person of my
Dreams.
He was the light of my life.
He was my all.
He was my everything.
 
And I destroyed that,
I destroyed him
I destroyed myself
I destroyed our love.
 
So in reality
I deserve all this pain.
I deserve all this ache.
Because I gave him this pain
When we were together
Because I treated him so fucking bad.
 
I don’t deserve this;
But if I could have him back
If he gave me that one chance
I would worship him every day.
every day id tell him his worth
To tell him he is special.
To tell him how much he means to me.
 
Cos god I wish I did that,
God I hope the new girl does that.
Because he is so beautiful
He is so special
He is everything.
 
He made the world a lot more bearable.
He made the world a lot more lovable.
He made the world a lot better.
He was my world.
And I destroyed my world.
 
And my one wish for him now,
Is he receives the world he deserves.
He gets the girl that will tell him how much he means to her
He will look at her the way he did with me.
 
I hope she gets lost in the ocean
And I hope she looks after the sand
And I hope she looks at him every day
And thinks how lucky she is
Not thinks
Tells him.
Because that’s
what he deserves.