What if

What if everyone in your life was like one big illusion
Your life would be a gigantic confusion
People you were close with slowly drift away
You laugh to keep from crying,you dont know what to say
Is there anything you can do to make them stay?
You sit there to think is this all real?
Are things really how they appeal???
Knowing down deep inside that you forgot how to feel
Loved,wanted,trustworthy or even not knowing how to feel worth living 
Not knowing the TRUE meaning of FORGIVING
But you still laugh thats what keeps people around
All this overthinking is like waves and i drowned 
But you wont know that you cant see past my smile
Now i know why people wanna change their lifestyle