What's left

tonight I cried so hard,
I threw up what's left of my heart
I saw each little dusty piece
swim it's way to the bottom of the toilet.
I watched what was once me,
become nothing I honestly just want to run away.
I want to play hide and seek.
I want to go back to my happiness.
I can't find my happy place,
it all disappeared with my heart.
I was falling in love,
but I fell to deep.
My heart is worn on my sleeve,
but this pain smothers my lungs,
I can barely breath.
happiness?
I honestly don't know what that is.
my body so tired,
i don't have a way to recharge
my heart was so broken,
I don't get a new start.
Each cut I make tonight,
I won't feel.
this last breath,
won't be as sweet.
all I asked for was love.
all I asked for was peace.
It all starts with me,
BUT WHO AM I??????

so what's left of me is about to be gone.
the only thing left is my trail of tears.