Whats the meaning?

(This is the lyrics part that I promised. 

The vodeo is above.)

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I'm losing it, I've lost my mind. 

This life is dull and I can't decide. 

The meaning of life, what is it?

I've paid the toll but I've lost the kit.

So I'll pick up the pencil, write on the paper. 

I need to speak to the council, to think of this caper.

1 2 3 4, give me some exitement or I'll take on the board.

I'm losing my mind,  and it's hard to find. 

So I'll jump off a cliff and try to unwind.

Where was I when the party was on.

The moment I showed up the party was gone.

Such simple tactics that their real complicated

Getting my thoughts out there that their not even stated.

So what's the meaning,  what's the statement. 

This rap is way out there that its hard for containment. 

Rapping is not just a gangater art!

Not just for black guys, its easy to start.

So I'm breaking it down, just a little bit. 

Going to lose the frown, don't have a fit.

As i rap it up, don't lose your mind. 

As for me, I'm going to unwind. 

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Sorry if its not my usual thing, but gradually I'll get better at this. 

R.M.