When a father sleeps...

My eyes are filling up walking the street
I can't see nor can I breathe
I'm a failing father and it's time to weep
Wishing I could just lay down and sleep
The depth of my emotion, I feel it so hard to explain, but I'm ready to cave
I want to express this overwhelming feeling, but I find that I'm too afraid

A voice I have in my head is telling me it's my fault and I'm too weak
I battle to keep my tears in so that people don't see me as a total freak
With every moment I stop and think, my mouth moves but I don't speak
I create a happy story from the past so I don't face reality and have to feel

To the days when I feel that I want to pray, I am alone and the dark days still remain
How selfish to think that it's all my pain, when love stares right back into my face

I'm told that I shouldn't burden myself with this heavy load
As fathers go I'm poor but consider myself rich
With two daughters they are my angels good as gold
With their loving heart, my hand they'll forever hold

I fear that I'm going to be put in a ticky box before my time
I know love is all around and it's a mother for them I need to find
I look for the truth in a person with untrusted vision
Will I just live with my demons inside my rusty old prison

So to the dark days when I want to kneel
It's ok I'm just a father wanting to sleep
And to the days when I want to scream
I'll just remind myself this will leave,
When a father sleeps
When a father sleeps....