When im gone

mum always did say I'd be late for my own funeral,
I'm purposefully late,
as organised that I'm the last one to enter the church and even 10 mins behind everyone else!
When I'm gone

When im gone please dont cry,
Shed a tear or wet your eyes.
When im gone i want smiles and laughter rippling the churches naive,
No sad funeral songs but something more grimey like things by man like dave. 
Gods son by nas as my coffin is carried on past the pulpit.
As long as it starts with dear mamma or his rendition on tupacs thugz mansion,
dont pull the plug as im bloody loving it...
At least in my coffin you'll know that my heads bopping and my souls feet are still tapping and dancing......
Drum n bass and music to shake the church,
Beats reverberating and beating on down to me,
6ft under the earth.
Smile,
Laugh,
Be happy and rejoice.
I've had my time on earth.
I've loved and lived and made people hear my voice.
I was never quiet or rarely beaten down,
Just cos im dead doesnt mean all the faces around you have to screw up,
Look beaten or cry tears that could drown. 
Live and be happy,
Cheer and shout,
I havent left you,
Look up to the skies and im there smiling no doubt.
You soppy buggers though,
Won't listen to my advice,
I can still hear you crying,
Front row to back,
As joe is reading this,
I can see you,
 im in the coffin behind his back.
Ha,
There,
Middle row,
6 seats from the side,
Is that a smile i see or have my dead eyes just tricked and decieved me?
Who knows? 
Im not quite there,
I wrote this poem to make you smile not cry i do solemnly swear...
Just know that for years i smiled whilst suffering in agonising and constant pain,
Be happy im all but a soul,
No brittle bones,
No more cancer pain again.
Im free to see and go to where ever i want,
Sprinting and running,
Sqaut thrusts and star jumps. 
Just imagine im whole again,
No more pain and suffering.
As if that doesnt put a smile on your face i dont know what will,
Im not struggling no more just putting my feet up to chill. 
Im not going anywhere.
Just waiting for who im gonna have join me next,
So we can rejoice up here,
Looking out on you all from my fluffy clouds nest.
One last thing before i go.
Each and everyone of you come up here,
Think of your happiest memory and let us all know.
At least then ill know that i'll have at least made each and everyone of you smile even though you've done so well till now.
Bye bye.
Tarah for now.
Ill see you all in the future as for that theres no doubt .....
Love you all to the core but my boys and my family take up my life times store,
I love my friends too but my family mean so much more.
Kobe, riley and bradley,
My little bundles of joy,
What a great household we made,
Just us four boys.
Our home was our fortress,
Our haven our place,
Youve given me so much joy with the smiles on your faces.....
Dont worry as im still with you now.
Im there in your heart and your genes right through to your cores...
Dont see this as the end but a new beginning,
If you an do that for me,
You'll lways be #winning.
All your lives you've each made me a super proud dad,
So smile with me today about all the amazing memories we had xxxxxxxxx