Why?

I look around
Blood
Blood is splattered everywhere
All over the walls
All over the floor
I look down
I see my body
Laying there dead
My wrists
And my throat
Slit
Blood pouring out everywhere
Why?
Why I asked myself I can't remember
All I could feel was
Pain
Suffering
I was suffocating
Suffocating from the pressure
Of this world
Someone is coming
It's my mom
She is on the floor now
Cradling my body
Yelling
Screaming
Crying
My whole family is here now
All crying
Oh god why?
I asked myself again
I never meant to hurt anybody
I was trying to save myself
Save myself from the pain
Of this world
Maybe that was why
Why I killed myself
Why I decided to end it all