Why are you never bored

"Why are you never bored" is the question that gets asked the most, but I'll reply ,"I dont know," but deep down in inside I know the answer to the question

Travelling to a dark space isn't the funnest, I keep myself busy to get rid of those dark thoughts, the ones that come and go when you finally lay down ,"im not good enough,"
,"im too fat," cause I would rather paint a picture than look at that monster in the mirror.