Why im i still pushing

Im still here
Sorry to disappoint you But i plan on going no where
Through all the back stabbing
All the heart break, All the betrayal, Leaving me barely able to stand living
Im still here, Im still alive
And i will thrive, disappointing those that i come across
Probably giving my all for those that wont do the same for me
Giving my heart to those thatll hand it back, loving someone who loves someone else, procrastinating everything and calling it “ a bucket list ”, being a leader but in the process of following my dreams.
I will dream
I will love
I’ll find peace
I’ll rebel
I’ll fight
I’ll live
I’ll die
I am human
its who i am
its who I’ll be until i decide to change, I dont care if you understand this
just accept it
Im still alive