Will I know love?

I wish my heart knew
When to beat and when to stop
how to see what other want
To be quiet or sing for all to hear. 

That unknown it tears 
and rips things apart. 
I wonder when I see 
Others with joyous glee

Embracing that love
That is unknown to me
have you felt it , perhaps nay
I don´t understand , its not me given
A fate few given