Without you

Never had my life been more complex,

Reality had simply left. I was all alone I couldn't help but wonder if I left this life was there something for me out there?

Although I lived in pain and my heart was broken everyday I can't complain, without my past my life just wouldn’t be the same. I’m glad we went our separate ways, what we once were will be no more. I used to think you were the one, the man that I was dreaming of.  Funny how that dream is now just a drifted memory. I gave my all I poured my heart out and for what? You broke my heart and made me cry and to top it off you laughed when we said goodbye but jokes on you, I opened up my eyes in time to realize that you were not my paradise you were just a stepping stone along the way kind of like those bumps on the road  I couldn’t sway. It took a while for me to see that there was more just up the road.

I found the person I was looking for hiding deep inside my soul. I found the girl I used to be, you know the one you fell in love with. She showed me I no longer need you, she showed me how to smile she showed me life goes on even with you gone. Now that you're gone life couldn’t be better, my mornings are no longer bitter, the days don’t drag and the nights are calm , I couldn't be happier so glad your gone. The smile on my face is permanent I wouldn't have it any other way. The moments we shared will always be treasured,  but will eventually fade till you're

no longer the memory that keeps me away from living my life. I thank you for our time but mostly for opening my eyes. If it weren’t for all your drug abuse I’d still be laying next to you trying to convince myself that one day you will change hoping some day you will love me once again. Life without you seemed so strange I couldn’t leave you  even in my wildest dreams. I thought without you my life was not complete I used to think you and I were meant to be  I now see things so differently. The love I used to have for you has now disintegrated  my heart no longer breaks and my  faith gave me the strength and helped me to move on I kept my head held high searched deep inside my soul for it was there where my happiness was found. I can’t thank God enough for the plan of life he had for us!