Witnessed suicide

I thought of you today and a tear dripped upon my cheek.  Emotions took control of me and I just sat and weeped. Memories full of love, joy, happiness, and grief.  Clustered my mind full of sorrow and my heart then began to  ache. Wishing you were here for just a moment of time. Lord I'd give anything if you can grant this one wish of mine. The sparkle in your eye, your laughter, and your touch.  I miss all the little things that meant so very much. Just to hear you say I love you once again, would fulfill my deepest desires within.  I still can't believe your gone, just yesterday we were laughing and carrying on. And now it's been 5 months that's 5 months and a day way to long. I'd trade places with you if I could not a doubt in my mind If I would. I hate the way life plays the hands that were dealt,  it's no where near fair the pain you held inside you questioned why it wouldn't stop. Then instantly it ceased with just one shot. No more pain your free from it all and at that moment I began to fall. My heart sank my eyes flooded by tears. Reality instantly became obvious too.. a piece of my heart died and flew up to heaven with you.