Won't let it beat me

I have all this anguish, anger and pain all built up inside of my brain....
They will never go,
won't ever take leave.
They disappear when the sunsets,
and reappear when suns up....
all my fears,
Every worry,
comes hurtling towards me,
like a jackknived lorry.
why do they all come at once,
 not one by one but one n all,
I will conquer them,
defeat them all, 
life's not a game to be played with, 
for that you'd be a fool. 
use what your given,
life's every tool,
don't let it unravel like a ball of wool.
Hopefully soon I won't be droppng to my knees,
hopefully soon I won't be on the list of an amputatory.
no matter though as I'm ready in my mind,
they can take my leg,
a prosthetic limbs is easy to find.
I'll get used to it, 
I'm sure I will.
But for now I'll continue to swallow my pills under Drs orders,
I'll fall into line and see my leg departed but I won't be sad as it a new beginning,
from that point on life I'll start #winning