Worth

Self worth, 
I should have known from child birth 
that my worth 
would be tested by every man that didn't deserve
me 
Constantly infatuated by false fantasy 
I struggle to love
The self worth within me
No man can play me 
Or am I playing me?
Introducing myself randomly 
To sperm carriers 
who don't want marriage and a family.
What am I doing?
Do I have any self worth left
To keep pursuing?