Are you still my mommy?

when I was in my mid thirtys my husband and I started to grow apart. As, you can guess this "growing apart" led to divorce papers that  werent exactly signed. I had long brown hair at the time and the only reason i kept it this way was because my husband liked it. Well, one thing led to another and i cut it off and dyed it blonde.

      I had one 4 year old daughter. When i came home she she stared at my hair in awe. I began to explain the divorce. I felt like an idiot. did i really expect this child to undestand? She looked at me sad and lost without tear. She whispered three words. Are you still my mommy? 

     The worst part was, i didnt know the answeer.