Becoming our own....

It's amazing what we grow accustomed to.  In one world everyone appreciates you and looks up to you and you're a person of stature and on the other hand you know reality where everything is fake and you know non of it is real. You realize you're a failure and you let everyone down. You realize you're actually alone. 
Well least that's how I feel. I once had everything , money in my pocket, a beautiful and gorgeous girl, a handsome son, an amazing family, friends that would cut for me, a life you can only dream of ....some would call It perfect I took it for granted.  It was then all stripped away from me and now I'm left with nothing.  I try to understand it all and I'm trying to redeem myself but I understand nothing is going to be the same no matter what I do or what I accomplish .